I’m going to pour my heart into this post so bear with me please. I have been extremely overwhelmed in the last few days. I actually had a panic attack on Tuesday and I almost fainted (twice). Yes it was that serious. Aside from the fact that I haven’t been eating and sleeping well, I was given a task and it was just getting bigger and bigger. My brain wanted to explode! I had no idea where I was going to place it in my already busy schedule and I cannot drop the ball on this project. A lot of people are counting on it.
So yesterday, I shut down completely. I went offline, turned off my phone, locked myself in my room and I just listened to music throughout. My iPod shuffled to this song by Deitrick Haddon and it struck a nerve within. As I was listening to the lyrics of the song, I thought about what Jacob said to the Angel, “I will not let you go until you bless me”. Jacob ended up struggling with the Angel until he got his blessing. I said to God, “Lord even after you bless me, I don’t ever want to let You go.” If I ever let God go, I’m as good as finished. He is my pillar and strength. As I listened to the song, this peace came over me and I know I will be fine. It always works out well in the end.
If you’re feeling overwhelmed, just breathe and hold on to God. I read this quote by one of the branch pastors of my church and I thought it was simply apt; “You were not wired to multitask by chance. It is so that you can combine the multifaceted ministries of Home Affairs, Marketplace and Temple Service effortlessly.” I could relate. Multitasking is in our blood (if you are a woman). We’ve been wired to do this. I believe that so much. God will never give us more than we are able to bear. Even though a part of me is like “Adedoyin, you haven’t added the ministry of Home Affairs yet and you are feeling like this”, I know that the grace to balance it all will be available for me when that time comes. So as I have been saying to myself in the last 72 hours, you will be fine! Trust me 🙂 Just talk to God. Tell Him how you feel. Yes He already knows but pour out your heart to Him still. Let Him know that you cannot do it without Him and He will see you through.
Enjoy the song “I don’t wanna let you go“. It’s a good song to meditate upon. Never let God go. If you don’t know Him, please please get to know Him. Your life will be so much better with Him in it!