I was cranky and I sinned…

Another week is here again! For those of you in Nigeria, how are you enjoying the long weekend? I haven’t really enjoyed mine much. When I first heard of the public holiday, I thought I’d be able to get two days out of it where I’ll just stay at home and rest. For two consecutive weekends now, I have been out for one event or the other and it started to weigh me down last week. You know how we introverts need to go into our shell and recharge? Well, that hasn’t happened for me at all this long weekend.

I’m glad I went to all the places I went to over the weekend but I feel seriously drained. It’s so bad that I was cranky in church yesterday. I didn’t want anyone to talk to me or touch me and as we would have it, the Pastor who preached yesterday kept saying “Touch your neighbour and say…” at every opportunity. Doesn’t God have a great sense of humour! I didn’t find it funny at all. I couldn’t fake being interested in talking to my neighbour so I focused hard on the social media pages I was managing during the service.

The service was truly awesome but it didn’t help the cranky mood and I ended up snapping at someone (*covers face*). On a normal day, I would have ignored what this person did but yesterday, I wasn’t just having it. Of course I felt bad afterwards. I didn’t insult the person. God forbid; but I really shouldn’t have confronted the person the way I did. I was annoyed at my reaction and I thought about it until I got home. It probably wasn’t as bad as I kept imagining it to be but I just couldn’t let it go. When I got home, I asked God to forgive me for the way I behaved and when I see the person I snapped at again, I will apologize. That’s the only way I’ll feel 100% better.

I thought of the Scripture that says “Be angry and do not sin.” It is in Ephesians 4:26. God knows we would get angry. He knows people will press our buttons but we have a choice not to react in anger. You can feel the emotion and not act on it. There is always a choice. I could have kept quiet yesterday. I could have remained where I was instead of going to meet the person to give ‘a piece of my mind’. I was not angry. I was just in the mood but I let that mood affect my behaviour which is not good.

How do you deal with anger or moments when you are not in the mood? Can people truly say they see Christ in you with the way you handle confrontation and bad behaviour from others? When you act out in anger, do you justify it or do you immediately feel remorseful? And when you realise your error, do you apologize or do you puff up your shoulders and move on like nothing happened?

People must see Christ in you every time and in every moment. I know. It’s not easy. That is why we need the help of the Holy Spirit to help us and direct us. You can always choose to be the bigger person in any situation. Don’t let other people’s action determine your reaction. And can I say something and I am also talking to myself here; don’t let a mood determine your reaction. It is something that I am still working on and God is helping me. I am much better now. I’ve just been really overwhelmed but that’s not an excuse still.

Be an example to someone through your behaviour and the way you speak. As the Bible puts it; let your light so shine that men may see your good works and let your speech be seasoned with salt. I pray that as you go into this week, God will order your steps and lead you in the way that you should go. At every point where you seek Him, you will find Him and He will show you great and mighty things you do not know. Loads of love!


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