I read a very moving story by Tito Idakula some days ago and it brought some questions to my mind. I had the opportunity to share one of the questions with two of my friends yesterday. The question is this; is it possible for God to slay the people He says He loves? Have you ever asked that question before? Maybe your life has been perfect, with no obstacles or trials but there are some people who have faced some really hard times in life.
As my friends shared their personal experiences and the experiences of other women they knew, I was wowed by the huge faith that was demonstrated in the midst of great pain. In the case of Tito, I cannot even begin to imagine what she went through seeing the child she just laboured for die within hours. I just can’t. Is it the months of pregnancy? Or the months after the event where she had to get her life back together? I mean, it won’t really have cost God anything to save her baby. He is more than able. But do you know what I love about her story? It is the fact that she yielded to the will of God. She demonstrated great faith in a very dark hour of her life.
It reminds me of a woman who shared a similar story with me last year. I had gone to her salon to have my hair done and I received news that a colleague of my friend had just lost his wife. The wife had put to bed some days before then and she died of complications I think. As I was pondering aloud on what his emotional state would be at that point, the woman responded, “My dear, there is nothing in this world that can console that man right now. It’s only God!” She then went on to tell her story. Her child had died barely two months after she gave birth to him. She went to the market to do some shopping and left the baby in the care of some family members. By the time she returned, the baby had died. She nearly ran mad. How could a healthy baby just die like that? She said, “Through it all, I still give God all the glory. The last few months have been tough but I thank God for His strength each day.”
I really didn’t know what to say to her when she finished her story. I just thought of Job. I thought of the statement he made, “Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him”. I asked myself, “Is it possible for God to slay us? How can a good God slay the people He loves? Isn’t this woman’s story an evidence of slaying?” As if she was reading my thoughts, the woman said “My dear we cannot understand the ways of God but this is the confidence that we have, that Christ has overcome the world for us and everything will indeed work together for our good.” I sighed, still not saying anything but I had many questions in my mind.
While reading Tito’s story, I had many questions. While talking with my friends, I had many questions. I may not have all the answers but this is what I know, there is a reason for everything. It may look like God is slaying you right now and you are wondering what He will gain out of it but don’t ever lose your faith. To be honest, I don’t believe God slays us. I stand to be corrected but my Bible tells me that His thoughts for me are thoughts of good and not of evil. My Bible also tells me that He is working in me to will and to do of His good pleasure and it also says that I will face trials and tribulations. Tests will come. There will be bumps on the road. What I know is that even though you may not be able to avoid the bumps and bends of life, God will carry you through if you choose to lean on Him. Again the Bible says that even if you pass through fire you will not be burned and when you pass through deep waters, you will not drown.
That statement is worth repeating; “You will not drown.” Whatever situation you currently find yourself in right now, lift up your eyes to the hills and hold on to God. Your help comes from Him. He is the one who will give you the strength to overcome that loss. He is the one who will carry you when you are too weak to carry yourself. Yes that situation may be really bad but there is something good ahead. I don’t know what it is but I believe strongly that very soon, as Tito shared in her post, your test will become a testimony!